I am struggling.
One of my last posts was about feeding three (including me). Things were going okay. I felt positive about being able to feed M & E. I felt confident. Things were going okay. I have hit yet another obstacle akin to February 2012 (the extreme dietary changes …which prompted my mother to say STOP FEEDING THEM AND EAT). I know mom. I will most likely do the same thing to my little girl when she runs into an issue. I will try and protect her but….
Anyway back on track…they are both getting their TEETH. We have 6 per mouth. To the Mamas, can you imagine TWELVE TEETH? They may be weaning themselves because they are NOT being cooperative. I am not one to give in easily. It has been about a week or so of …let’s say complications.
I have come so far…at what point do I give in and stop?
Is it called giving in?
Have I done enough?
Am I too hard on myself?
Time will tell. I think I am tired. I feel like I have been tired since December 2010. To be honest, I am so tired I could just sit in the corner and cry.
I don’t want sympathy. I just wanted the chance to express myself as I (unexpectedly) hit what may be an obstacle in this journey of feeding TWINS that I cannot overcome. Maybe I need to change my frame of thought…I need to think of how far that I have come and all that I have accomplished. It sounds good in theory. But I am not quite there yet…
Thanks for sharing my mixed up, emotional thoughts!
[Update: I wrote this post 2 days ago. I have decided to keep going for another week or so and feel how I feel. I feel much better than when I originally sat down to write this post. More hopeful! Also I spoke to some great moms that I know at TOT-SPOT (play group) and they helped me find a better perspective! It is great to have other moms to talk with about these things!]